Saturday, August 07, 2004
Brotherhood
Brotherhood
Friday
Feeling: Wierd
I'm feeling wierd...again...todays been a really boring day...i started my day playing midnight club 2...as usual, got trashed by the computers...they are soooo pro. they can get to the first position no matter how badly thrashed they are at the start...or maybe its because im not a good driver...i dont know...and i cant be bothered to anyway. after that went to buy makan...den bathe...and proceeded to meet CC at the MRT station...SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO freakin sway. i was waiting...den this woman came over to tell me about religion stuff...heck man. i grew up in both a cathelic primary school and a cathelic secondary school...how would i not know about such stuff? she asked me if i was a student. got kinda pissed off over tat statement...is she implying im a shortie? or i have a childish look? well, i dont care. i'll treat it her statement as a compliment that i have great skin maintainence. and she further proceed to asking 'so you're rather spend your time playing computer games, going out, rather then go to the church, spend some time with god?' MAN! that was it! who the hell is she to say such things? anyways, i didnt bother. i jus pretended that my hp rang and started mumbling to my phone. and then said excuse me politely to the lady and walked away...HAI...i felt kinda bad doing that...but...i dont care anymore. im pissed off. after that, met up with CC and went over to plaza singapura...gonna watch the movie Brotherhood. Man! that was one of the best movies i've ever seen...its the 1st movie that almost made me shed tears since spiderman 2...somehow, i managed to keep my tears at bay as i see the death scene of the older brother...and his grave scene...as the show came to an end, i noticed CC was crying...oh boy. seems like the others cried too...i duno. anyway, it was a great show...and i feel like watching it again...maybe i'll download it...after that, long pang dad's car home...came online...and started chatting away...after chatting with sze Hui, weiling, and EL for a while, they went offline one by one...right now, theres only EL online...and sending me a massive file...anwyays, i managed to install music into my bloggy! its Aeriths' Theme...from Final Fantasy 7. one of the best songs i ever heard...i also signed up for a free webspace...30mb space...with this, i believe i'll be able to upload photos and stuff into my blog...i also managed to make small words appear at the bottom of my webby...all these made the webby lag...so i removed the snow flakes and fancyful mouse pointer...its still great! despite the massive changes...hai...i should be happy, achieving such great feats on the web for a java idiot like me...why dont i feel good? guess im feeling lonely again...man i hate this feeling...it drives me nuts...and i'll send crazy sms and chat replies...hai...why cant i learn to appreciate singlehood?! i dont get it...why is there such a desire in me to find someone whom i can hold on to...hug...cry on...and spend my time with? am i not happy with my life now? i have everything a starving afganistan kid needs...food...shelter...why cant i learn to appreciate what i have? i really...suck man...im going to go nuts soon...and i hate giving others the impression im desperate or something...but...i jus cant control that urge...i also dont know what i should do...i dont wanna hurt anyone...why is it so difficult...to really fall for someone...and have her like u too? haiz... dont wish to think liao...but cant stop...think i'll go to sleep...at least my brain will stop reminding me of such things for a while...seems like sleep is becoming a means of escape huh...haiz...nitez...
potato
3:04 AM
