Friday, August 20, 2004
Gu Ba!!!
Gu Ba!!!
Thursday
Feeling: Now extremely tired...but happy! teehee
hehe today is the gradutating day for evelyn...saw her in the morning! oh boy! she looks fabulous in formal! she dressed up even nicer den last time when we see her go for outdoor performances...had a picture taken wif her in the afternoon...shall post it when i recieve it! hehehe
reached sch late today...cos waited for CC at amk...its been quite a long time since we took bus together to sp and back...really missed those days...on the bus, toked about lots of crap and some other stuff...heh heh...guess he's another person whom i can tell my deep down opinions to...really great to haf u as a fren. shall treasure u always =)
abit demoralising this morning...go do FYP...but no one there...only wenjie was there...teckZ was late...keong was missing in action...and mingyu had lab test or something...sigh...i really think im not suitable to be leader lor...is it heck care attitude? is it lazinness? i guess its a mixture of everything...i duno...jus feel so 'si bai'...cannot even coordinate such simple meetings properly...wad shud i do!!! didnt do much today cos gg for performance...
as i came down from I.A. lab, feeling frustrated, saw qian tong and victoria sitting at the steps...said hello to them...den walked away...suddenly hear qian tong and victoria say i dao...cos they said hi to me and i didnt reply? DoTz! couldnt really be bothered to argue...so i greeted them again wif a false but seemingly WARM smile (believe me, im feeling really warm inside...warm wif anger ;))...den saw them smile back at me...suddenly...felt so much better le. hahaha! duno y. anyway, co room was packed wif ppl...so i decided to come out and join qian tong and frenz at the steps...hai! really cannot stand victoria...keep suaning me abt my height...but nvm...i call her gorilla. muahaha.
after the morning performance, went to play pool wif samuel at spgg...but the tables were booked...so we played bowling instead...after 2 rounds, victoria and ... and ... and... shit! i cant rememebr her name...the play zhong ruan gal lah. always call her metal teeth cos of her braces that freshie... ya they came to join us. as usual, they kena bully by us. their shot we help them shoot. lol. but fun lah, they bery onz. hahaha. after that went for lesson.
before the evening performance, we sat at co room toking abt lots of things. Li Ling (pipa the li ling) so funny lor! i ask her wan watch 'aliens verus predator' not....den she say shud be ok...den i ask later again if she wanna watch 'avp', she said the same thing...den later, she asked: wad is 'avp'?. -_- lame right? those who got the joke, ok. those who didn't, nvm. anyway found it quite funny lor...she like xiao mei mei likedat. kinda cute. haha. oh well, but den again, this year female freshies so many like xiao mei mei one...e.g. weiling. >.< den the boys more mature de...but same as last year, majority of the more regular freshies are gals. sighhh...y so many gals? so few bois? we bois carry things til bery xin ku wor!!! haha. but is good chance to train up body abit i guess. hehe.
haf a good chat wif cc on the way home too...suan sze hui all the way. hahaha. so fun LOL. but too bad she and samuel alight at ngee ann poly there. haha. pro wor...den...sze hui say they take the same bus from ngee ann and she alight one stop after samuel lor...means...they live bery near one another! HEH HEH HEH...gossip gossip!!! i shall observe over time and see if got any SPARKS anot HEHEHE *kpo!!!* >=)
before leaving sp, siew ping (freshie, not ah bu!) said something that made me felt wirerd... the other day i was very pissed off i started scolding bad words and all...she was ard...den today, she said that shes glad to see me in such a good mood unlike the other day when i was really bery angry. hmm...was i really bery fierce and vougae the other day? but that wasnt really angry lor...really angry...is when i left for bugis that time...when she ard...is alredi cool down liao lor... ... .. sigh, guess when i flare up i can be really scary...that day XZ called me ask me wads wrong...y i so angry...i told her my hp low batt and hung up. actually my hp still got batt...but i jus dun feel like speaking to anyone. cos i noe i'll shout and curse and swear lor...im really sorry the other day...ur concern is really appreiated...but i guess i really cannot take that call...if i do, i noe, things will end up much worse. oh well, but i guess u guys wont be seeing me flare up so often...i only flare up under xtreme circumstances...X_X
anyway, today was really a fun day...had so much interaction wif everyone...felt...alive again...its been so long since spco was so re nao...how i wish everyday likedat...the warm feeling that used to linger ard club almost everyday in the past...how i wish i can experience more of it before i graduate...spco shall be an extremely memoriable place for me...for as long as i live. and all the frenz i made there and happy memories...shall never be forgotten.
after coming home, played front mission til 3am...den went to read everyone's blog...whoa guess there were many angry ppl huh...haha...poon..wad u said really make sense...the stuff abt giv and take, etc...guess its something i had wanted to express, but didnt noe how to. reading ur blog made me felt enlightened? hehe. as for ur sis...oh well... guess im used to it le...sometimes my bro also not very courteous wards me...but...guess need lots of understanding and tolerance between both parties before things will work out ba? used to be as bad as u said..me and my bro...but now alright le...cos tok things out face to face...sometimes tahan him abit...sometimes he tahan me abit...yeah? guess u're too cooped up at home le la...haha.
guess i shall stop here...will be working tml...better catch some sleep keke night night!
potato
3:53 AM
