Thursday, September 02, 2004
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
Wednesday
Feeling: ok-ok lor...
sigh, today's PLC test was a total flop. i didnt manage to finish in time...watched in vain as nearly 20 marks flew off as i handed in my test paper unwillingly. that totally ruined my mood for the day.
went to co after that...the first thing i did? look ard. sigh, nvr see her. oh well...kinda expected that (i think she told me last week she wont be coming...but im not sure...dont remember very well). sheeZ...that ruined my mood more. took out my bass lazily and kinda...unwillingly. as i UNDRESSED --> o_O my double bass, marleen was like asking me not to practice in front of her. wad la...who wanna prac in front of her...was jus preparing my bass...sheeZ...den sze hui came in...oh well, saw her before entering co room...she's having this glum look on her face...wonder wads wrong wif her...cos she usually haf a cheerful face hanging on her face all the time one. asked her...apparently, shes not interested in saying...so, let her be lor.
haiz, recieved new scores...sux...long time no play bass liao...was like...so unnatural...playing those songs...like bery offtune, off tempo and the sound i played was far from soothing...sianzation. anyway, got new tempo...so mr lee taught me a thing or 2...oh well, kinda appreciated that...the first song, di tanjong katong (wadever, i dont care how u spell it) was like...so sucky. fast speed + lots of notes...sigh...hate that. the 2nd one was an indian song...no kick...so mr lee released me early to makan...cos i was hungry...and kinda pissed off that the others went to eat without waiting for me ... at least thats wad i thought before i met them outside...seems like they haven left yet...haha that brightened my mood a little...
actually today my ah mah was gonna bring us go outside eat good stuff...but...cos...i wanted to see her...i know the chances of catching her in grp was small...but...i guess i dont wanna take the risk that she might be here and im not...so...i rejected my grandma...and stayed for grp, though i didnt feel like staying...in the hopes that she'll come for grp...dont wanna miss a thing...
so went to makan...cos my mood was horrible...so i bery guai lan...weiqiang queued with me a waffletown...kinda like suan him (and offend him abit...very sorry weiqiang...bear wif me...sorry for whacking ur butt so hard when going home too...my terrible mood at work.) all the way...i know im offending ppl...but...its jus my mood...i couldn't help it...good thing i managed to control abit and made it look like i was joking...so he also joke ard wif me...but inside i was like...haiz...sianz...cc saw me kinda sianz...he asked y i sianz...but i dont wanna tell him why...so i jus said im tired...blah blah blah...yinzhi ah yinzhi, y i feeling likedat? isnt it jus supposed to be a crush? maybe i've fell too deep into the pit...but at the wrong time...not sou wif ppl den fall so deep...im in deep shit liao...drop me a rope!!! anyway, will try to control a bit...but...she haven been online lately...kinda...going nuts liaoz X_x...i should sleep more in co room to avoid offending ppl...
the cck ppl were here to celebrate teachers day wif mr lee...HUI TING was here...celia was here...EVELYN was here...sigh...seems like things are still in a bad shape...didnt tok to hui ting at all...tok to evelyn a bit...basically only one or 2 sentences nia...that she wanted me to pass a cd back to EL...thats all...dont mention celia...i nvr even tok to her b4...sigh...seems like some things can nvr be forgotten...but at least im trying to make some effort toking to them again...if they treat me as normal frenz again, i would be very happy liao...but...oh well...nvm...nvr tok much to them also bcos of my mood...dont wanna end up offending them again...
throughtout combine i was pulling a long face. i was tired. my legs hurt. my fingers hurt. i was feeling farked up. i had no mood to count tempo. basically, i was just like a zombie there...jus playing the notes when i see them and not even bothering to add any dose of emotion into my music...even a simple song like xi xun chuan bian sai i play until like shit likedat sigh. this is one of the most sucky combine of the year. and to think tml there's SE and on friday prac again...i really dont feel like going for both man...but i'll still be back in sch (though i got no lessons at all) hoping i wont miss her...sheeZ...
after combine asked SH asked if i wan her to go home together anot...den i asked cc if hes gonna take 74...he's gonna take cher's car...and asked me if i wanna take cher's car also...kinda caught in a dilemma...to go wif cc? or to go wif SH? after considering how farked up i was feeling, i thought it would be a better choice to go wif SH...cos at least she's someone i could tok to without offending her (though its the same for cc...but on cher's car...i dont wanna tok to cc abt my personal life in front of mr lee...)...sigh...aroused some gossip again. that ah beng was trying to be funny...but...heck...im in no mood to bother abt him...
on bus she told me why she's pulling a long face in the afternoon...and toked abt lots of stuff...i felt like telling her why i was pissed off too...but i guess dun wanna let her noe how im truly feeling...so i jus said i was sianz blah blah blah...sorry, for not telling u...though u r my v gd gd fren...jus dun like xpressing my true feelings face to face...i would prefer writing them in text...and having u guys read how i truly feel here...when reach NP there she gg alight liao. thought that the time was rather late...not v safe...so i sent her home. though i nvr tell u much abt my day, but toking to u abt music and co was making my mood sorta better already. thanx, sH...
reached home at at 11.40 likedat...so much sooner than i xpected. guess thats something good ba...had a bath and came online to read everyone's blog...watched a flash abt some love story from weiling's blog...somehow, i wasnt touched at all...usually when i see a sad love flash i will also feel abit emotional de...but...this one didnt arouse such feelings within me. i wonder why. oh well...cant be bothered either...
ah di, for the command for this song, i will gif it to u when i see u online. i cant post it in this blog entry...so sorry...
looking forward to friday...hope she'll make her appearance by then...and tok more to me...that way maybe my pissed off feelings will disappear...yinzhi...if she got come...dont di xiao me...or i'll kill u...hahaha.
"PeTeR pAn SaId,
ThinK
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a
HaPpY tHoUgHt
so
yOo
can
f/y...
GuEsS wHat?
yOo
mAKE
mE
fLy. Gd morning..
*hugs* (",)"
for ur info...that message u sent me sent me not jus flying...but rocketing...send me more...send me more...that was the only msg u sent to me...i haven deleted it yet...sighX...
tml 8am proj...gg sleep liao...gd night...
potato
2:20 AM
