Friday, September 24, 2004
QIAN bian er TONG
QIAN bian er TONG
Thursday
Feeling: shitty to the core
congrats, QT!!! u're my 100th frenster fren!!! hahaha...u'll be blessed wif my heng heng aura for 100 days! this is a trial edition, u may feel free to suscribe at $99/mth after ur first 100 days of trial! =.= wad i typing. haha MAd liao...jus added a testi for u...along wif the testis i owed a couple of ppl...sheeEz...been so busy i dont even haf time to read other ppl de blog...finally tml i no need go sch can have a good day of rest...
feeling so stuck up after hearing the news SH had for me...though i didnt show much emotion when she said it, but inside...i feel that...IM DAMN STUPID lor...wad the hell am i doing? feel like a f***ing piece o shit lor. dont even dare to ask ppl out...i think i should just go be a ****ing monk lor. feel so shi bai...@$^(*)%^&(&%($#*%$&...ppl are already asking her out for makan and sending her home liao. wad shit haf i done? nothing! jus a freakin failure...i feel ashamed and wanna bang the wall lor! $^%%@&%&#$#&#$&#$&...why the hell am i like this...why do i not know how to advance properly in my attack??? why do i fall for ppl who obviously dont suit me?!?!?! its...dumb sia...shitty...it always seems as though the odds are against me...either live too damn far - so far i cant think of any xcuses to try send ppl home, or they will already have set their eyes on someone le? it sucks man...i suck man. thats y i think in such a sucky way. wad a failure. ppl like me should rot in hell...
wads more...my co-examination for my FYP should be done by this week! i haven even call up the damn lecturer to confirm a date yet! wad shit am i doing?! and mr tan...haven looked for him either...at this rate, the project's gonna go haywire cos of me! wad the hell am i doing?!?!?! i am a dead piece of shit as far as this FYP is concerned. it was a serious mistake electing me as leader right from the start lor! face the facts, dude. i suck at leading. i wanna be a good leader. it has always been one of my ambitions. but...i know myself. i dont have wad it takes lor. i also dunno y i was elected in the first place. i guess its because no one wanted to carry all the shit load of burden and i seemed like the most-easy-to-bully guy in the team...thats y i was asked to carry most of the weight of this mad ass proj? and cos of my poor expression skills, i tried to reject the post but failed?! wad the heck is this man...lifes are at stake dude!!! my grades are at stake!!! sigh...shit it lah...sigh...
totally demoralised...confidence shattered...mind blank...and talking lots of shitty nonsense...ignored wadever i said earlier...i feel like im such a wierdo. one time u see me happy...hehe here haha there...laming abt...crapping abit...den suddenly i turn into one hell of a volcano...fire erupts out of no where and roars of curses and thundering swears could be heard ever so often...these Aliens novels i've been lately is really kicking in some of those 'ass, shit, bastard, bitch' words into my english dictionary man...whenever im pissed, i'll be throwing these new toys out in a lil' sentence or 2...sigh...im a wierd idiot...life's a b*t*h...f*** her...sadz...
potato
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