Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Tired... Really Very Tired...
Tired... Really Very Tired...
Wednesday
Feeling: sucks. thinking abt bo liao things againZ
jus return frm grp prac...today is Cc's 21st birthday...grow up le huh? haha...hope all his wishes come true...
apparantly, i misunderstood my spy's words. so...im resuming my attack! and my most doted 007...maybe u can continue helping me dig info again? i will treat u to that round drug u wanted so badly. hahaha. sigh...i dunno if i did the right choice...the thing i did on sunday. dun dare to tok to her man...sigh sigh. wads wrong wif me? i am very gutsy one wad...why now become turtle? almost everytime i see her, she'll be practicing...how to tok to her likedat? i really dunno...and i better find a way to do that man. if not im gonna feel im useless for eternity...den there's something abt that awkward glance exchanged everytime our line of sight meet...sigh...what have i got myself into again...sigh...feeling abit demoralised now...BUT! i wont gif up...unless im given the red card...sigh...i really am not good at this. ZzZz...if only i know how she felt. the actual reason why i said no need to reply...is because im afraid to see the answer...sigh...i must try again on friday. i must awaken that hidden tigger within me!!! ZzZz hope her ans is something encouraging...
oh well, saw qian tong today. its weeks since i last saw her. when i saw her today, dont think she's very well ba? abit shagged shagged look...like gonna collapse anytime likedat. heard that she just recovered from a sickness. well, i wont know. she didnt seem like herself today anyways...cos she nvr use her 'slicing glance'...well, not that im glad or wad lah...she told me later to help her carry her gu zheng...was kinda surprised ya? last time when i offered to help her carry she will say something like 'wad? dont look down on me ok...i dont need ur help!' or something like dat...oh well...didnt probe further for reasons...den in co room she tune her instrument...the conversation we had was kinda strange. hmm. i also dunno wads wrong wif her. BGR prob maybe? oh well...'gals are so hard to understand.'. it seems gals share the same thoughts too - 'guys...what are they thinking?'...shEez...anyway she seemed pretty bored in grp too. kinda envy her...can sit there listen to music...not like us...standing...den...the string so rough...wish i could slack too...maybe i could, if Benjamin decides to stay. he's not bad wor...quite good i'll say...considering he was sight reading...if he becomes committed...i wont have to worry abt bass section anymore for some time to come.
i guess i shall stop my entry here. i only have 5 hours and 57 mins of sleep left...time to runZ...nite nite...
potato
11:23 PM