Sunday, September 12, 2004
Zone Of The Enders: The 2nd Runner
Zone Of The Enders: The 2nd Runner
Saturday
Feeling: damn freaking vexed
phew...woke up at 11am today...obviously slept xtra late due to the fact that i slept at 3 last night.
went to try the game Viewtiful Joe...haha...very lame...the main guy and his gal got captured into a movie when they are watching a superhero movie...the evil villian captured his gal while an uncle uncle superhero wif a big beer belly 'trained' the young man...den he got super powers like super strength and superspeed or slow motion...very nonsense game...when the hero strike a pose all the enemy on the screen xplodes and dies. lame-sation...anyway, that game had quite a lot of entertainment value and has puzzles which are quite challenging...even on normal mode. quite a nice game...should try, u guys wif PS2...
anyways, spent the rest of my day burning gundam seed vcds and most of my time on the bloggy. lucas and andrea had some obvious complaints about my word colour... but the background made it really difficult to put a nice colour while making the words visable...so i decided to change the whole thing altogether...thought i wanna put robots...so i searched for Xenogears and The Zone Of Enders...so...here i am, putting a background of the robot Jehuty...spent lots of time trying to make the picture to size wif a display settings of 1024 x 768... this caused my pic to become slightly deformed...but at least jehuty kept his shape...only skinnier than before... this was all i achieved so far...managed to get rid of the bottom scrollbar...gonna find ways to remove the side scrollbars too...but that will need time...i guess. shall put my taggy on first...the other stuff can wait.
hmmm reading through everyones blog...seems like i haf made someone quite unhappy...again. i admit im in the wrong...hope u will forgive me? i have no idea how u got to see that sms i sent to SH...but when i saw wad SH mentioned in the msg she sent to me, the first person i could think of was u lor...cos i thought SH wont read my blog and u r the person closest to her...and the fact that i told u THAT THAT thing...so its actually quite natural for me to think that way isnt it? though i know its wrong of me to make such assumptions...but...if u were me, would u not think that way? still, i cant blame u for being angry at me...and i seek ur forgiveness...its high time i stop thinking abt THAT THAT thing anyway. its making me so vexed and the time wasted can be spent on things much more meaningful...and i keep making irrational decisions and conversations due to it...im really getting sick of it lor. its time to climb out of a pit that leads to nowhere. someone, drop me the damn rope. im getting out for good.
im really getting sick of talking to ppl...cos basically i have nothing to say to anyone...and i keep saying the wrong things at the wrong time...mabe i should jus shut the hell up like i used to back in the sec sch days...its not gonna be easy to become a bo chup and cold guy like last time...especially since im now very much the opposite of that personality...but...IF becoming isolated again can ease myself of such pains...i gladly will. im really getting sick of sending sms and no one replies. trying to chat but nothing to say. the desire of wanting to tok to people but dont dare, or dont feel like. im really getting sick of socialising lor...cos im basically not a person whos good at toking...and thinking before i speak. it sucks lor...so...might as well dont tok at all? right? i dunno how u guys feel abt me but...i feel that im quite a loser in this field lor. i try to attract attention in the wrong way all the time...pulling ponytails...suaning ppl...i dont like doing such things lor. and those people who kena dont like me doing it either. so why waste my effort? i might as well leave them alone...and save my own energy.
from now on, i shall try to change. dont anyone stop me. i had enough of trying to be the mr frenly alredi lor. its time to let me be mr. antisocial. as the saying goes: life's a bitch. F*ck her. maybe the first thing i should to for a change is to stop coming to CO room everyday lor. and i should pioritise my studies - like wad all the others are doing. no point trying to be active in co when the others only care abt their studies and dont gif a shit abt the room at all, right? dont tok abt year 1s. how many year 2s actually go down there and slack the hell of the afternoon away, toking...makan together...doing stuff together...going home at 6 or 7? maybe its us, the year 3s who go down everyday that got on the wrong side of the boat lor. this world is changing. no studies, no cert. no cert, no job. no job, no money. no money, no nothing. how much is frenship worth? its price-less. time to work hard for my cert. when i got my cert, i got my job. when i haf job, money comes. wif money, frens will come. gals will stick to me like glue. wad the hell? isnt that better? den trying to socialise like a mad idiot - and getting pissed off cos no one is reacting? maybe its high time i zapped myself back to reality lor.
i must be mad tonight, saying such rubbish and worthless paragraphs of shit. im totally pissed off with the world now. to hell wif terrorist or wadever shit man. i am all i care about now.
potato
1:53 AM
