Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Its THAT Time Of The Month Again
it must be THAT time of the month again...why the F*** am i feeling so F***ed up, stuckup and moody lately?!?!! WTF is wrong with me?!!?!
really du lan wif so many things...haf so many regrets in life...no matter how hard i try to atone for my mistakes, i dont think the other party gifs a shit man..haiz... try so hard to get along wif some ppl...try to be helpful...try to jio ppl out...all the shit i do...i dont think anyone appreciates them at all...meanwhile some ppl dont need to do anything...they jus sit there...ppl will come find them one...so hao ming hor? y i dont haf? some ppl bo chup den get all the attention in the world...so unfair, this F***ed up world...sometimes, try to jio ppl out...they say prefer staying at home...but other ppl jio them out...onz...y likedat? is there something wrong wif me? am i a monster who will eat them up? if im not close enuff wif them, i can understand...but even after i try to get closer still likedat? so demoralising... den y sometimes an activity plan nice nice liao...everyone onz le leh...den the distance too far for some ppl, they end up pang seh...y likedat? i live in hougang leh hello...go to far far places i also dont mind...y some ppl still bother? isnt the going out and getting along and having fun that matters more? but cannot blame lah, some ppl got too many ppl asking them out le...if gang A wanna go place A but is too far, nvm, got backup plan - gang B ppl going place B, nearer...so go wif gang B...ok lor...they popular, i bo wei gong lor...
sometimes try my best to put up an optomistic front : hello short is good ok!dig trunk use less strength and time... ; see? u too tall liao, keep knocking onto the bus roof... ... ... F*** it. takes so much courage to say such things...im losing strength...how long can i still keep up such an optimistic front? i am a 'bei guan' person by nature...how long more can anyone expect me to be likedat? i think im breaking down soon...pray hard that tml when i go out a flower pot will drop frm upstairs and knock me silly...den no need to hear sad things, no need to worry about $$...no need to worry about emotional issues..............................
LEE YONG HENG, TO HELL WITH YOUR LIFE MAN...
sorry if i shoot anyone...jus feeling pissed off...hope u can understand... haiz... need someone to support me badly... about to break down liao...............................
F*** my bro jus asked me to ask my dad help him hang his clothes...y cant he bloody F***ing hell do it himself? he so free...lying on bed in air con room reading magazines or comics or wadever...wad an A$$ hole...
potato
11:24 PM
