Saturday, June 11, 2005
New Future
i'll be entering a new chapter of my life in 12 hours time. im having mixed feelings. excited - that im entering the next phase of my life. sad - that i'll be leaving my frens and family for some time. the feeling is like migrating to another country...
this might sound silly to some of u...but these questions keep coming to my mind: will i be able to adapt? will i like or hate it there? will i be able to tolerate the training? will i haf frens there? how will i look like botak? will i be able to grow taller? will i become more good looking? how mature will i become? haha...when i think of these questions, i shiver with both fear and excitement. i know that weather im prepared or not, i have to go in tml. i have more or less settled most of my luggage and emotional stuff...i am...prepared. yes.
jus wanna tell everyone, my frens and family, that i love u all...you have played a role in my life has shaped me the way i am now...i would not have been able to come this far in life without u...thank you for being part of my life. i also wan to apologise to those whom i have offended...especially the ppl who hated me during my sec sch days...
thank you, dad and mom, for bringing me up...now is the time i become a man and help out wif the household. i might not be the kind of son you all would liked me to be...but i still hope that i have not disappointed you all with the way i am now...i love you both...
han, i used to bully u a lot last time...i wan to apologise for that. over the years, u haf became a listening ear, a worthy GO opponent, a skilled artist...i love hanging out with u and enjoyed watching anime together...though i usually piss u off cos i pause to read the subtitles too much...hehe...one thing i need to tell u though, is sometimes, u r not very sensitive to other ppl's feelings...and that u tend to talk too much at times...but well, i still find u a great person despite those 'sometimes really very irritating' traits. lol...take care. hope you find your true happiness.
EL, Poon, Jiang...its great hanging out wif u guys...i really loved the days when we would walk around the school during recess time looking at girls...gossiping...etc...though we have distanced slightly due to our admission to different schools, i believe we will always be the best of frens...i really treasure the times we spent together...i wish u all the best of luck in whatever you do.
serene, u were perhaps the person who changed me the most during my sec sch days...i am truly grateful to you...i am really lucky to have such a good mei like u...i hope u will live in happiness forever...
tiek, keong, mingyu, wenjie...u guys were excellent classmates and FYP team-mates...i am truly grateful to u all for accepting me into the group...u guys were the best in the class...and dont mind working wif a guy as lazy as i am...thanks for always being there for me during exam times...u guys are allies i cant afford to hang without...lol...i wish u all the best in wadever career u might persue.
chuan cheng...u r perhaps one of the most impt frens i ever had...whenever i had problems, u r definitely the one who can gif me the most direct facts...u were a good listener...and u were matured in your thinking. though sometimes we tend to piss each other off alot, but i wan u to noe that u r really someone who i treasure alot...
zhi guan...i really dont know wad to say...i really loved hanging out wif u...u were perhaps one of the major reasons why i didnt change course in yr 1...cos u said we'll make a gundam together...but in the end u put my plane lor. haha. its been great working wif u as SL in yr 1 and working under ur leadership in yr 2...i wish u all the best wif engine...treasure her =) good luck wif ur career with the RSAF...
engine, eve, TS, shu pei, wen hao...u guys are defintely the best seniors i ever had...i am truly grateful to u all for making me realise more about my surroundings and showing me wad working wif others in the outside world is like. u guys have taught me many things which has affected my life greatly. we have distanced quite a bit ever since u guys graduated...but when i had problems, u all will not hestitate to lend me a helping hand or be my listener...i really dunno hw to thank u all...jus hope that when we meet again, any changes in me will not disappoint u all.
bengz, fei you, ky, yz and other alumnis...i really like hanging around u guys a lot...u guys were wonderful frens i cannot do without. we shared joy and pain together...im sure all these memories will be remembered forever...hope u guys can become famous musicians in future! we must meet someday for dinner when we can book out ok!
andrea...u r someone really special to me...ur the first girl who i really got along REALLY REALLY well with...and i really enjoy being with u...i feel really happy when i tok to u...cos u'll always blabber some funny things that would make me laugh...but im really worried about u right now...the emotional struggles u r having now...if there's anything i can help with, i will definitely wan do my best to help...remember, if at any time u really feel like toking to someone, my hp will still be on in tekong...feel free to disturb me ok? of all my god-siblings, u r the one i dote on and treasure most...i really wish u happiness...
buddy xz...i liked being ard u. u r a good social mistress...have no doubts about that. but try to be less close to guys ok...cos sometimes being too close will scare ppl off de...and at the same time, i really dunno hw KX can tahan...haha...wish u 2 the best...
buddy LH...dont be scared of being committee...though i cant help u out wif such stuff, but always believe in one thing: ship reach harbour naturally straight...dont worry too much ok? im sure u would make a good treasurer, since u can get so calculative at times...lol...i really enjoy ur company...hope u like the penguin i gave u...haha.
ah bu SP...ur makeover some time back has really changed u a lot sia...haha...though u haf become more pretty, but u still nvr become dao and still tok to me!!! lol!!! i really enjoy the conversations i had with u man...hope we can chat more when we meet up again nxt time...steven is a gd guy...hope u 2 will live happily ever after...haha...
ah bu xp... gambette in ur work as VP...and though u dont hold the 'C' position in our club, u still can be the cleaner!!! hehe... hai, dunno wad else to say le...jus wish u the best in ur studies, vp and BGR...hope someday ur feelings will be strong enough...good luck..suki desu.
lay leng, thank u for listening to my probs the other time...im really sorry i injured ur leg...u were a good leader and a good fren...im really happy to know someone like u...until we meet again...! good luck to u...
samuel, be a good QM and PR ok. dont sian the gals til they run away ok. lolX!!! den when i ask u for their no., must gif me ok! hahaha...u r a really nice guy... u will find ur happiness. be sure to work hard to maintain it when u find it...dont live ur life in regrets.
harrison...sometimes u tok too blunty...thats ur good point...and maybe ur bad point as well...u r matured in ur thinking...but sometimes dont give up on things too easily...always believe in miracles...go for it, even if the success rate is as low as 0.01%...some things u think and decide with ur heart, not ur mind... =) take care my fren...hope u will be happy...
weiling and SH...u gals are really nice to tok to...ESPECIALLY WHEN U ARE SUANING PPL AND BEING SUANED...lol...excellent spies as well...hahaha...i know ur course is stressful and all...but hope u all will be able to juggle co and studies well...guess both of u also had some bad experiences in BGR...though i dunno much, but jus hope those experiences wont stop u frm falling in love again...spending time wif someone u like, having him supporting u when u need support...these are definitely the best feelings one can have...but u haf to risk getting hurt, time and time again...but at the end, it will be worth it. wish u 2 good luck in this field...
all other SPCO ppl...i might not have mentioned u guys...but do not be mistakened - u all are important to me too...without u guys, the club would be less lively den it is now...i really liked playing music wif u all...and hanging out together... I LOVE SPCO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess i would stop here now. there is alot i wanna say...but i dunno how else i could express these thoughts...i love u all. await my return...and pray that i will become a better man when u see me again. that is all. good bye. take care.
taking another step down the path called 'life'...a new future awaits...
potato
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